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|Thursday, June 8th, 2006|
i never use this one, really i don't. I'm over on wordpress now, www.noblefibers.wordpress.com if you want to visit.
catch ya on the flip side!
|Wednesday, January 26th, 2005|
what is it about guys? just because they have penises mean they have to be one? both the males over 18 who happen to be involved in my life are being giant ones at the moment.
|Tuesday, January 4th, 2005|
|where the hell have i been
well, in one of the last entries i mentioned just finding out i was pregnant. he's now what, 19 months old? hey, gimme a break, it's midnight and i haven't slept more than 5 hours at a stretch all week, mostly because my children haven't been sleeping well. right now simple counting has the same heights as calculus does. Mostly since my last post i've been chasing children, living life, moving (I've a blog on blogspot) (oh and I live in South Carolina now too) and well way too much to catch up on.
talk to you later, i'm going to go wimper into my pillow quietly, awaiting the little voices that will be awakened by their mommy radar and must have water fresh diapers potty trips immediately.
|Monday, February 10th, 2003|
Hope you ejoyed those Rob, 'cause you know you are the only one who reads this lol MWAH!
Blues are some of the most loving, nurturing and
supportive personalities. They live from their
heart and emotions. Their purpose for being on
the planet is to give love, to teach love and
to learn that they are loved. Their priorities
are love, relationships, and spirituality. What Is Your True Aura Colour? brought to you by Quizilla
I took this one and I'm...
-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend. What Kind of Girlfriend Are You? brought to you by Quizilla
Hehehe Kevin is SOOOOO lucky hehehe
|Monday, January 20th, 2003|
|Thursday, December 5th, 2002|
For those of you interested in viewing the pitiful entries in my journal, this should help you get to it. Current Mood: contemplative
|Wednesday, November 13th, 2002|
For now at least. Wow it's been a long time since i've posted. a lot has happened, and yet not much has happened on the daily level. Make sense? No? Lol well join the club. Let me see if i can catch you up.
August...My son T finally, finally is back living with me after too long living with his and G's dad. He's so very sweet and helpful and irritating and loving and boy, it's wonderful to have him back, I rarely talked about him because he wasn't around and it just hurt too much. I feel more complete now :)
Went to a gaming con in Atlanta, worked my ass off, was expensive, way more work because Kev got into an argument with our director immediately and got sent to work elsewhere. So, since we were not working in the same area, had different schedules, things just could not dovetail like we'd planned on. T had fun, he went and stayed in the day care part of the time and stayed with Kev the rest of the time while I was working because i had to work with the bitchy director, and (poor me) got to get my ears filled with all sorts of crap about Kev. *sigh* So, I mainly sat in the room Kev was working in (Sci-Fi Friday track) or worked in the consuite. Next year will be better :)
September...Spent at least one day a week schlepping back and forth to the VA Hospital in Tuskegee Alabama. True to most government facilities, we usually had a 2 or more hour wait...nothing like trying to sneak off to nurse a baby in a place full of dirty old men!
G got her second tooth in, looks like it's going to be a long, drawn out proceedure for the poor girl.
October...More trips back and forth to Tuskegee, although the clinics we were visiting were more on the ball and we had a 2 hour max wait. Kev and T went as the Men In Black fro Halloween, figure it's a good way to make use of the suit he got for his aunts wedding before it's outgrown. They looked adorable!
November...Well, finally got some child support. I'm supposed to get 120 per week, and Tim agreed to pay it out of pocket until we can get the parternity thing figured out. * yes he's our son's father, no there was NEVER a doubt as to that fact, but he's an irresponsible person who never bothered to sign the paternity papers. You'd have thought he'd have had a clue what with having had a child before, but nope, he put it off and forgot about it and suddenly when we went to sign T up for school Tim couldn't do it because his birth certificate says "father unknown" Fortunately we were married, although legally seperated, when G came to be, so the state automatically listed him as her father, which he is. Anyway...since the date of our agreement i've been owed 120 per week in child support. I have recieved $120. In October. In total i should have recieved 600. I talked to him last night and he said he mailed out a money order for 100 yesterday, he's trying to get "caught up" That's great, but gee it'd be nice if he stayed CURRENT and got caught up when he could. I'm not being a bitch about it, I know his poor money handling skills, that he doesn't make sure he figures everything out before he makes decisions and that he will NOT leave himself with an empty wallet, and that he has other bills. But, I have kidlets to feed and bills to pay myself. *sigh*
Speaking of kidlets, I had a realization the other day. I hadn't had a period since oh...july? hmmmm...but I am nursing G and it's not unusual to skip when you're a nursing mom. Besides, when Kev was with his ex they were thinking of spawning so he got a work up because he'd had testicular torsion that required surgery when he was in his early teens. Martin Army Hospital said he's clinically sterile. So missing is No big deal. a few days later Kev made me a grilled cheese sandwich, which i ate, then promptly regurgitated. No, i felt fine, just yakked for no reason. Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm....been peeing an awful lot lately...HMMMMMMMMMMMM...so we got a test this past weekend and gee...guess what...*sigh* So, things have been quite lively here this week, rather like an emotional roller coaster. Told Tim last night, we are after all only legally seperated, and he cried. I tried to confort him and reassure him but gee, what do you say in a situation like that? He wants me back, hasn't done a damn thing toward the goal (yes I gave him a list, I knew he'd be clueless without an idea of where to start) i do have to say that if he ever gets his shit together, and still wants me back i will have to do a lot of deep soul searching and thinking and waffling, i don't want to do that to Kev because i love him but *sigh* I've known Tim since the 4th grade and i can not describe how hard that is to walk away from.
T so far has taken the news of the new baby the hardest, asked if it was daddy's baby, then he said he didn't want me to have babies with anyone but daddy. Just about broke my heart. We talked about it though and he did say that he would love the baby anyway, because the baby is family and family is more important than anything. And today, he spent over an hour arranging a play area in his room for G so she can play safely in there with him. I don't mean arranging the toys, but scrubbing the floor padding (like we have in the livingroom) in the bathtub with his little bar of special soap he likes to use, so her head wouldn't get hurt if she fell over and so it would smell pretty when she sat on it, he set up a barrier of different heavy things because there are areas in his room we can't baby-proof well, and he devised something to keep her little fingers off the tv controls (he has a super nintendo and a playstation in there to play, no cable or other tv) I truely sit in awe of him at times.
*sigh* makes me strive to be a better parent, but it is hard to remember that when he's been up for the 5th time after being tucked in and i'm beat and he then he comes out a 6th time and says in a tiny little voice i'm sorry mommy to be keeping you up, i'm trying to go to sleep but i miss daddy (his dad slept in the same bed or room with him ever since he was born practically) *sigh* i feel like such a shit and i go in five minutes later to apologize for being hard and stern with him and to try yet again to explain to him why he needs to rest and shouldn't feel guilty about missing daddy but he needs to at least stay in bed if he's not going to sleep, and he's spread eagle on the bed sound asleep.
I have been very proud of Kevin as of late. He's not used to children, although he's getting there, what with G haveing been here for 8 months and T for three. We've been having discussions because Kev is a stern disciplinarian, which is not a bad thing especially when he will apologize when he's in the wrong. However, he will fall upon T like a drill seargant with a ton of bricks up his ass when he percieves T as having done something "wrong", which even Kev will agree really means he didn't do it to Kev's liking, especially when kevin is in a bad mood. Kev also has the tendancy to be oblivious to things that don't directly involve him, so we came to an agreement a few weeks ago. I would share with him the great little things that T does that Kev either isn't there for or is oblivious to, and Kev would keep in mind that T is a living, breathing child who hero worships him. It's actually started working, we talk about T after he goes to bed, Kev has started noticing his sweet and wonderful side more than he had already been, and he was able to control himself tonight when he was in the foulest mood i've seen him in and T was being a pest about dinner. He doesn't ever hurt him physically, he just has the ability to make someone he's upset with feel like mud, the final straw was one night when by the time he was done yellign at T, T ran into his room crying, spanked himself and then put himself in the time out chair. Granted he had not been careful and had knocked his sister over but the extreme reaction Kev had was just as unacceptable. He agreed and did talk to T about it to attempt some damage control but really, learning how not to do it is better than learning how to patch it up. It's looking like he's learning finally :) Current Mood: stressed
|Wednesday, August 14th, 2002|
ugh notimenotimenotimeNOTIME seems to be my mantra lately
|Wednesday, July 31st, 2002|
I just realized how little I post in this. *sigh* well, I am still fairly new to it, so I guess it's a matter of getting used to it, right?
Right? lol I have so many things I want to share, but ya know, life then happens and things fly out my mind like little birdies, to light upon someone else. I swear, I know that post-it's were mine originally, I really do lol ;)
Anyway, Today is CHAT DAY!! Woo Hoo!!
I get to talk to people I enjoy talking to, about things I love doing (like spindling, dyeing, animal husbandry, kids, men, life in general) it's MY day, and thankfully Kev is off-semester for two weeks so hopefully he'll watch Gwen tonight instead of take a nap like he did this morning lol
I've decided today that I'm going to send in skeins for Finger Lakes in NY. I wasn't sure if I could, I didn't want to go through all that work, pay them a dollar per entry, and then have them keep my work because I couldn't pick it up personally, but another one of my sister spindlers has volunteered to pick mine up when she picks hers up, so that's all well and good. Amy M was giving me some advice on skein presentation today as an aside during chat, it doesn't sound too difficult, just picayune, which is the way it is in any competition. I'm actually more interested in the critique, but a few ribbons would be pleasant.
Oh, speaking of earning things you don't expect, Kev got his semester results back today, a B in World Literature to 1600's, and an A in CAD, so he is taking his two favorite girls out for lunch and possibly a movie tomorrow. Well, the movie is for the grades, the lunch is a belated birthday present :)
I'm working with some loverly, SPARKLY Black Lake II from Bountiful. I really like this stuff, i've got um....4 of the 8 ounces I bought spun up. I'm going to ply it with a black roving from Gavan Bay that has jewel toned silk and kid mohair noils in it. I hope it will make a pretty, not too flashy lacy shawl or scarf for Betsi for christmas. I think I started on Kevin's christmas present last night, inadvertantly lol I was dyeing up some corriedale roving to sell, and did NOT like it, so I overdyed it. It came out dark green with dark blues and purples. Reminds me of a certain night swimming in a seaweed bed in Lake Koshkonong many moons ago...*sigh* lol T'any way, Kev latched on to it and said he wanted a sweater out of it. A sweater, out of 8 ounces of wool?? Ermmm...um....if I could reproduce it maybe.....but it's plenty for socks.....so I think he'll have nice toasty feet for Christmas. Which leaves me with 8 oz of Icelandic to sell this week. It came out really pretty, but I don't like the texture of this roving, it's both coats blended together. It is a beautiful dye job though, of course I was playing with an exhaust bath so there's no recipe grrrrr why are the best ones not reproducable? I DO have some recipes, and they are great...I think the fact that I can't make it again is part of the appeal to me. Hmmm...I wonder how the judges at Finger Lakes would feel about a gorgeously dyed skein of rug warp? lol
Off to fix dinner and chat in an hour. Current Mood: busy
|Friday, July 26th, 2002|
I'm awake now. got outbid on an auction so my quest for a complete set of needles is thwarted for the moment. But, my auctions are doing well, so I can't complain. I actually have multiple bids on a few Woo Hoo!
hopefully Kevin will take pity on me and will allow me to go zzz some more
|Thursday, July 25th, 2002|
this is a place for me to enter my thoughts, things for me, and ramble about stuff i'm interested in. So, it might not make sense to a lot of people, and that's fine with me. Current Mood: apathetic